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To You and only You

You know me very well

You know what i am going through

You know what i pray for

May be recently i have not prayed enough

May be because i know that You know me and know what i want.

May be it is an attmpt from me to forget whatever i once wished for.

Trying to accept whatever comes to me.

I tried hard before because i always believed that my efforts won't be wasted.

but people have not been fair to me

They hurt me.

I complain them to You, because i know that You know me and them.

You know that i tried so hard.

You know my secrets and theirs.

You know what is inside my heart and inside them.

I know that i recently have not prayed enough but i know that You know that i need You so much.

I believe in You and trust You so much but what if i fail the test.

When i think about You, i feel like i am not ready to give up.

Whenever You are beside me, i don't get worried.

Sometimes i may say other than that, but You know me, i am so weak.

so please forgive me

Comments

The.I.inside said…
it's an honest prayer , coming from the hear, and it touched my heart , How can you describe the way I feel .
Anonymous said…
I don't know why this post felt like I am the one who is talking.

May god forgive all of us coz we really need it !!!
Brownie said…
as the.i.inside said, what comes from heart touchs the heart specially if we all go through this feeling from time to time.
Ameen to ur paryers Dr.invisible
Ice Queer said…
That's beautifuly written! May God give u what u want =)

i've some questions thu:
Do you feel any kind of connection with God when u pray? If yes, then do u feel it in all the 5 prayers?

Do u believe in karma?
Brownie said…
Ice queer:
Ameen to all of us :)
to be honest, i feel the connection when i am prepared to, for example, whenever i have to pray in order to not miss the prayer or in a noisy place like work, it is difficult to feel it, that is why i love most salat el fajr and el 3ihaa.
i always believed in Karma even before i know there is such a word for it.
thanks for stepping by
Ice Queer said…
Well, I donno, I just NEVER felt any kind of connection and on the other hand I pray when I want to not cuz I've to!

You r lucky 2 feel that connection, do u know that? =)
Brownie said…
i know that i am blessed el hamdolliah :)

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