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Am broken. I don't want to forgive or forget. I just want to be left alone.

I know this is not a new topic but I want still to talk about it. Recently a lot of girls I know have taken off their Hijab and as much it boomed at the beginning, now it is disappearing as quickly as it started. People taking it off for many reasons and the main reason, we look better without it. The idea scares me, I am afraid that I would wake up and decide that I don't want to wear it anymore. It scares me like when I start missing prayers that I might stop praying, God forbids, it is not that praying is equal to wearing Hijab but both are very important to me. Also I don't like the idea that people praising me for still wearing my Hijab, am not wearing it probably and I have a lot to improve so don't make believe that I do what am supposed to do which I am not. Another thing, there a lot of so-called Hijab Fashionista all over the social media that they don't have anything to do with Hijab, I know I don't have the right to judge any of them but after I f

Today I felt great الحمد لله so I wanted to share. that is it

For every time I complained about how lonely I am when I actually I was not. For every time I complained about my friends want to hang out with me all the time. For trusting you when I should not. For every single time I wanted to be left a lone & could not. I would not complain now I just wish for it to end soon...That is it & that is all

So today is my birthday, as usual I have to write a post so here is what I learn during my years of living; Family and good friends are what keep us alive so be grateful if you have good ones even if you want to kill them sometimes, you are not easy yourself, are you? Traveling is so nice, do it even inside your country. Bring something that remind you with you trips. I bring magnets, they make me smile everytime I look at my fridge. Live alone, you would learn a lot, you will discover stuff about yourself you never knew. In love, listen to your inner annoying voice and if it is too good to be true, it is probably is. Enjoy being alone, get yourself gifts, make yourself happy when no body there to make you happy. On a positive note, I have 29 years left to retirement...YAAY I want to adopt a kid soon inshaallah Update - 25.05.2015 So at the beginning of the month, I was in a complete mess because the one I thought is the one. It made everything looks bad and I wanted

I want to go home. To pack all my stuff and just leave.