My 30s

So today is my birthday, as usual I have to write a post so here is what I learn during my years of living;

• Family and good friends are what keep us alive so be grateful if you have good ones even if you want to kill them sometimes, you are not easy yourself, are you?
• Traveling is so nice, do it even inside your country. Bring something that remind you with you trips. I bring magnets, they make me smile everytime I look at my fridge.
• Live alone, you would learn a lot, you will discover stuff about yourself you never knew.
• In love, listen to your inner annoying voice and if it is too good to be true, it is probably is.
• Enjoy being alone, get yourself gifts, make yourself happy when no body there to make you happy.

On a positive note, I have 29 years left to retirement...YAAY
I want to adopt a kid soon inshaallah

Update - 25.05.2015

So at the beginning of the month, I was in a complete mess because the one I thought is the one.

It made everything looks bad and I wanted to just quit everything and just go home.

I usually buy myself a lot of gifts and plan to travel on my birthday, I always make big fuss of it.

I believe that if you are happy on your birthday, the year coming should be good. 

Because of him, yes him, I did not feel like doing anything, I did not feel like buying anything or even did not want to travel.

Then because Allah is the most generous and I asked Him to guide me, I prayed Istakhara, I did not prayed it earlier because I knew the answer. I enjoyed it so I want to be here for a while.

Then all come at once, it became clear to me that I cannot do that to myself el hamdolliah.

My friend suggested to go to Prague and we planned everything in a week, and till the day I traveled, I still had the feeling of not wanting to travel. I traveled and had so much fun.

I got myself Kindle although I did not want it that much.

On my Birthday, Living a way from my family and my few friends were traveling and for a person who care much about birthday, that is not nice.

I cried on my birthday eve over Grey's anatomy episode and because I missed him.

I thought he might remember my birthday but he did not, now am so glad that he did not.

I spent all my birthday reading on my kindle, and I love it, answering my phone or replying to people's messages.

My friend gave a me a surprise party in Prague.

Another friend sent me flowers and chocolate and made up my day.

Another friend got me a gift back home and sent me its picture.

A friend called me on my birthday while she is traveling to make sure am not depressed for spending my birthday a lone, which I was not at all el hamdolliah.

My brother called me the moment he wake up and if you knew my brother, you would not know how difficult that to him.

My sister sent me a morning voice message with her and my nieces singing happy birthday, I wake up on this message. she called me like 4 times that day :)

I was wondering why people made all these efforts to make me feel special.

I nag a lot, I have the worst mood swings, I can love/hate you in one minute. I could be horrible person sometimes.

The thing is that people who truly love you, will see deep inside your heart, they will really take you for good and bad.

I missed the happy me, he brought a lot of drama into my life and accused me of causing it.

Stand up for yourself whenever you get the strength to.

El hamdolliah for everything I have, for everything I have gone through and for the yet to come.