Meet The Brownie ...

Today as you are turning 29, a step away from leaving the twenties, I remember when we first met, you were 22 and I was what 18, we were young and we grow old together. But you know what you have never changed; you still 22 years old kid to me. You are still the young kid who does not know where to go. The one who lost and can not figure the right way to go. You are still the one who make promises to break. You are still the one who lie to me and who still want me to believe The one who always need my help to figure out which way to go. For me, you were irresistible. You are still the same kid I once met, but you are just a 29 years old man. But I am not the girl you once met. P.S That was a draft that was written 2 years ago, exactly on Friday, February,2009. Today I decided to post it

My generation has been through a lot, we have seen a lot, that is might make us age before our time. I just think in what happen, and cannot help myself but wondering is it safe? Some of events, my generation won't forget; 1985–1987: Sabra and Shatila massacre where from 700–800 to 3,500 innocent have been killed. 1987–1993: First Palestinian Intifada (Uprising) 1990: Invasion of Kuwait (Kuwait & Iraq war) 1995: Bosnian Genocide where 8,000 Muslims had been killed 2000: Al-Aqsa Intifada 2001: World trade center explosion Buddha destruction and Afghanistan invasion 2004: Tsunami 2006: Iraq war and Sadam Hussien hanging, at morning first day of eid el Adha Lebanon war 2011: Tunisian revolution and Zine El Abidine Ben Ali escape Egyptian revolution and Hosny Mubarek jailing. Libyan revolution and AL Gaddafi killing. Sudan division Tunisia new president Yemen revolution and Ali Abdullah Saleh UNESCO admitted Palestine as a member, following

You owe me a hug A hug you described to me that I almost felt the warmth of it. You owe me my first kid You owe me a future that I have to live without. You owe me past that left. You owe me dreams. You owe me a ring and small home. You owe me a lot. You owe me yourself. And I owe myself to forget all these.

Ok Mr Anonymous "You cheered me up today" P.S I wish to know who you are

My friend's friend died today of Cancer. He was my friend's school friend but he was one year younger. I met him only when my friend came for her annual visit. One visit, he graduated from engineering collage and started his career One visit later, Peter got cancer. Other visit, i met him after he started his chemotherapy and he was cheerful and nice as usual. he still had hope. I prayed for him. One visit, he can no longer go out, he was so sick and his friends had to visit him in his house. Today, my friend told me that he died. Peter died today after struggle with cancer. ya Rab all prayers for him to get well had been answered and he is now in better place. Allah You are the kindest on your people, rest him in peace. Ya Rab give his parents, specially his mother, the patience on this ordeal. Allah yer7mak ya Peter ya Rab. May you rest in peace ya Rab Pray for him please

You know 2 years ago, and exactly in the same time, I found my passion I decided what I want to do for the rest of my life. Finally I have a career and I know where to look. 2 years and exactly I Ramadan 1430 h, i knew that I got a new job, although I believed that the other one which I did not got is better, time revealed that this was not true. Because "إختيار الله خيرا من إختيارنا" And because I trust God's choice for me, so am grateful el hamdolliah. Lets come to the most important part about this job, My Colleagues were the most amazing people i have ever met. You know when you are not in the mood at morning and you want to go to the job, because your friends there will cheer you up. It is just a blessing. This spirit was infectious to new people. I loved them all, i learned from each one of them and am so grateful that i have met them and became a friend to each one and i hope i would keep them for life time. Am starting my new job after t

قال أحد الصالحين:نحن نسأل الله فإن أعطانا فرحنا مرة وإن منعنا فرحنا عشرمرات! لأن العطاء اختيارنا والمنع اختيار الله واختياره خير من إختيارنا P.S I wish i can feel the same but till then El hamdoliah for everything.

The eight years old girl who was forced to be kissed on the mouth by someone who told her that he knew her grandfather well and that allowed him to do what he did, yes he was the age of her grandfather and she was just eight or less. she felt so disgusted and did not understand why and why he did so but she felt it was awful enough not speak a word about it. The guy in front of the elementary school that showed his penis for school girls. Again his act was not explainable, no girl got it but it was awful scene to be seen & still no one said a word. In the public transportation, where sick men act like cats in the heat ready to jump on the first female he finds. When she walks in the street and men in their cars slow down, clearly define her as a bitch. first she thought that it might be her fault but taking another look into what she wears and how she acts, she realized that he is only a bastard. When some stupid small-head man gives a girl a nasty comment, and then you find peopl

I am Twenty Seven...ana ba2eet 27 ya people... How in God's name that happened, i have no clue but it happened I am grateful for everything happened to me during those 27 years. I am grateful for my family, friends and my work that i love so much. I am grateful that i can find my way. I am grateful that i have not lost my faith. I am grateful for every wish i got and did not got. Twenty Seven please be good to me..I love you already =)

I always love wedding so much. Every time i see two tie the knot, i wonder how they come to this decision, to live forever and ever for good and bad. or at least that is what i wish. Today i watched part of the wedding. Lets forget for a second that it is a real prince and princess's wedding. For me they were a couple in love and happy to start their new life as husband and wife. They were so cute. The dress ohhhh i adore it...Royal taste for sure. In short, it was a fairytale that we always have been told about, and i would not get surprised if William turns into a frog and Kate into a pumpkin. It is a wedding that cheered me up all day. May God give them happy long life together. P.S: Men search for your princess and treat her like she is, girls love to feel like princess specially from the one she loves.

A bit late But I got promoted on April 1st El hamdolliah =)

Am traveling to Turkey next February Inshaallah Just for fun

Am disappointed big time I feel loser big time although i know that what happened is good for me inshaallah But i still feel like a big loser and so much stupid I can not help it, this is how i feel what drives me nuts that people see that i should not collapse they give me all the reasons not to as if i don't know them already But we need to breakdown when we should We need to cry when we want and feel to I need to get sad every once and a while I have my reasons to be sad, to get angry and to cry Yeah the optimistic me, the beaming with hope me, the always smiling me is broken and needs to cry I do not see hope anywhere Am not the toy you got, and promised if it was not smiling all the way to return it back Am a human after all and i am so disappointed at myself.

life am giving you all up Would you please give me up too Please?! I won't hope for anything anymore I learned my lesson Stupid people as i am don't deserve you Fine i got it leave me alone for God sake

Once more time i am so broken into pieces

I want to talk about love relation between man and woman These days, it is more like a war not a steady smoothing relation The introduction phase; It starts with does he/she love me? He/she calls a lot..does that mean anything? Boys you give a lot of hints that are so difficult to understand; He: I wish my wife to be like you! She: Ok that does not make me feel better, because why not me Wala when he says: It is nice that you are not going far! sigh She: ok am here..what are you going to do? ...dah nothing He: I love you She: no, you just like me, you know the difference, right?! or do you really love me?!! See it is confusing :) If you are a guy and like a girl, go and tell her, it is as simple as that and please don't start talking about your ego. Have the courage, if she turned you down, the sea still full of fish and it is time for fishing, instead of waiting for the gold fish in bowl which waiting for her shark. If a girl likes a boy, mmm you can do nothing but waiting or mov

الحمد لله المنزه عن الصاحبة والولد. يبتلى العباد بالشدائد وهو الذى يهب الجلد. سبحانه. جعل السلف عبره للخلف. وأجرى الوقائع بما يناسب السنن و بما قد يختلف. نحمده حمد الحالمين. الراضين بالسراء و الضراء. النبطى ليوسف زيدان

2.5 million sq. km. (967,500 sq. mi.); the largest country in Africa and almost the size of continental U.S. east of the Mississippi River Till you fall apart I am holding my breath =(