Skip to main content

In the darkest

Am disappointed big time
I feel loser big time although i know that what happened is good for me inshaallah
But i still feel like a big loser and so much stupid
I can not help it, this is how i feel
what drives me nuts that people see that i should not collapse
they give me all the reasons not to as if i don't know them already
But we need to breakdown when we should
We need to cry when we want and feel to
I need to get sad every once and a while
I have my reasons to be sad, to get angry and to cry

Yeah the optimistic me, the beaming with hope me, the always smiling me is broken and needs to cry
I do not see hope anywhere
Am not the toy you got, and promised if it was not smiling all the way to return it back

Am a human after all and i am so disappointed at myself.
Labels:

Comments

Ze2red said…
It's okay to be disappointed, sad, mad or even angry. And you have all the right to collapse and cry your heart out whenever you want.

Girl, do what u have to do in order to get rid of all the negative energy, and come back better than ever.
1/4/11 8:04 AM
Mani said…
Crying, being sad being disappointed is your right. Use it when you need it but with caution ;)
9/4/11 10:44 AM
Anonymous said…
Hey

LOVE your template .. it is just so red :)

I think one should breakdown every now and then, makes you cherish the good times

I am in the exams season nowadays so I can't be online for long, but I will be reading your blog very very soon :)

Regardsss

P.S. You might want to add "custom name and URL" to your commenting section.. I had to use my 2005 wordpress.com account :)
11/4/11 2:00 AM
Brownie said…
Ze2red:
Definitely true, that is why i am little better now el hamdoliah.

Mani:
Inshaallah it won't last for too long, u know me!!

OpeRon:
For the layout: thanks a lot, etfdlo =)
Study hard and best luck ever =)
16/4/11 1:17 PM
Ze2red said…
i'm glad to know you are better. El 7amdoo leallah
16/4/11 11:03 PM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

A psychiatrist

A shrink, a psychiatrist or whatever they call it. That is something i don't want to do. I don't want to listen to people complain about their lives. I don't want listen to sobbing about their lives whether it is really bad or they are spoiled. I don't want to listen to people problems while my mind is occupied with mine. I don't want to listen when i can not give a solution. I don't want to go step by step to find a solution. I don't want to talk about failed marriages, relations, weird orientations , or even addiction. Oh God,that is a really tough job, gloomy job to have, May Allah help them. What is the job you can never do it?!
20 comments
Read more

Miss my Blog

I miss my blog, I miss writing, I miss it here. My blog helped me in the hardest part of my life, so I owe it a lot. Although I use social media now to vent, it is not like my blog, am more honest here so I am coming back here. I love talking here much more than anything so lets get re-started Although it is sad because it is quitter, a lot of bloggers, like me, had stopped writing.
Post a Comment
Read more

When the anger fades away

As you can see from my previous posts that i have been angry and sad for a quite long time now, i am angry at people around me, friends, family and my manger . And most of all, i am angry at myself. the thing is that i am not used to failure and i never expect that i fail, i have always achieved what i want to and if i have not reached my goal, the results were always satisfactory and near to the main goal. so now i fail, i did really, i have not achieved my goal, i have not got near achieving it, and eventually i lost my way. so i got disappointed, and angry because i failed and not knowing the reasons. as result, when this anger should be directed at someone. i blame people in my life for not supporting me enough or for telling me to be patient or to try harder, i could not handle advices so i stop talking to them. i came up with false reasons, government, injustice, inequality, bad luck, you name it. recently i told myself that i should not be angry at anyone, because it is not anyb...
18 comments
Read more