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In the darkest

Am disappointed big time
I feel loser big time although i know that what happened is good for me inshaallah
But i still feel like a big loser and so much stupid
I can not help it, this is how i feel
what drives me nuts that people see that i should not collapse
they give me all the reasons not to as if i don't know them already
But we need to breakdown when we should
We need to cry when we want and feel to
I need to get sad every once and a while
I have my reasons to be sad, to get angry and to cry

Yeah the optimistic me, the beaming with hope me, the always smiling me is broken and needs to cry
I do not see hope anywhere
Am not the toy you got, and promised if it was not smiling all the way to return it back

Am a human after all and i am so disappointed at myself.
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Ze2red said…
It's okay to be disappointed, sad, mad or even angry. And you have all the right to collapse and cry your heart out whenever you want.

Girl, do what u have to do in order to get rid of all the negative energy, and come back better than ever.
1/4/11 8:04 AM
Mani said…
Crying, being sad being disappointed is your right. Use it when you need it but with caution ;)
9/4/11 10:44 AM
Anonymous said…
Hey

LOVE your template .. it is just so red :)

I think one should breakdown every now and then, makes you cherish the good times

I am in the exams season nowadays so I can't be online for long, but I will be reading your blog very very soon :)

Regardsss

P.S. You might want to add "custom name and URL" to your commenting section.. I had to use my 2005 wordpress.com account :)
11/4/11 2:00 AM
Brownie said…
Ze2red:
Definitely true, that is why i am little better now el hamdoliah.

Mani:
Inshaallah it won't last for too long, u know me!!

OpeRon:
For the layout: thanks a lot, etfdlo =)
Study hard and best luck ever =)
16/4/11 1:17 PM
Ze2red said…
i'm glad to know you are better. El 7amdoo leallah
16/4/11 11:03 PM
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