As you can see from my previous posts that i have been angry and sad for a quite long time now, i am angry at people around me, friends, family and my manger .
And most of all, i am angry at myself.
the thing is that i am not used to failure and i never expect that i fail, i have always achieved what i want to and if i have not reached my goal, the results were always satisfactory and near to the main goal.
so now i fail, i did really, i have not achieved my goal, i have not got near achieving it, and eventually i lost my way.
so i got disappointed, and angry because i failed and not knowing the reasons.
as result, when this anger should be directed at someone.
i blame people in my life for not supporting me enough or for telling me to be patient or to try harder, i could not handle advices so i stop talking to them.
i came up with false reasons, government, injustice, inequality, bad luck, you name it.
recently i told myself that i should not be angry at anyone, because it is not anybody's fault, and if there is a mistake then it should be mine, it is my life and i completely chose what i want to do.
because when the anger fades away, i may start seeing clearly, i may rediscover a new goal for my life, i may realize what i did wrong and fix it and hopefully i will get peace of mind.
someone moved my cheese and i am planning to find it inshaallah
And most of all, i am angry at myself.
the thing is that i am not used to failure and i never expect that i fail, i have always achieved what i want to and if i have not reached my goal, the results were always satisfactory and near to the main goal.
so now i fail, i did really, i have not achieved my goal, i have not got near achieving it, and eventually i lost my way.
so i got disappointed, and angry because i failed and not knowing the reasons.
as result, when this anger should be directed at someone.
i blame people in my life for not supporting me enough or for telling me to be patient or to try harder, i could not handle advices so i stop talking to them.
i came up with false reasons, government, injustice, inequality, bad luck, you name it.
recently i told myself that i should not be angry at anyone, because it is not anybody's fault, and if there is a mistake then it should be mine, it is my life and i completely chose what i want to do.
because when the anger fades away, i may start seeing clearly, i may rediscover a new goal for my life, i may realize what i did wrong and fix it and hopefully i will get peace of mind.
someone moved my cheese and i am planning to find it inshaallah
P.S. the last line inspired by a book i read and love it " who moved my cheese"
p.s 2: Sara has sent me a motivation video which i believe is amazing and worth watching.
here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0yetHqWODp0 thanks alot Sara
Comments
thanks alot =)
Thanks a lot and Ameen =)
all i will then , is wishing you real luck..inner calm and peace of mind..
i can not wish more for myself, thanks a lot and AMEEN
u made me smile really :) so thanks
yeah that is what i am trying to do, to clear my mind, taking breath and start thinking clearly.
thanks a lot and welcome to my world =)
how r u?
thanks a lot for asking, it is just nothing pops up now to write about.
Hang on there, a lot is coming inshaa Allah
begad sorry that u r in this situation too, i would not wish for anyone but i hope inshaallah we get out soon and got our big big cheese =)
the last line is inspired by a book "who moved my cheese" it is very nice book.
thanks a lot for passing by and welcome to my world
with best wishes
Fkrny
Check this link out, I have a feeling you'll just love it! =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0yetHqWODp0
Thanks a lot
Sara:
yeah u r definitely right, satisfying is the life key, go beyond the physical thing to get the deeper meaning, the wisdom.
thanks alot for the video, i love it, i am gonna publish it for others to c it, thanks alot =)
Mistika:
Ya Rab.. i hope :) thanks alot and good luck for u too