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To You and only You

You know me very well

You know what i am going through

You know what i pray for

May be recently i have not prayed enough

May be because i know that You know me and know what i want.

May be it is an attmpt from me to forget whatever i once wished for.

Trying to accept whatever comes to me.

I tried hard before because i always believed that my efforts won't be wasted.

but people have not been fair to me

They hurt me.

I complain them to You, because i know that You know me and them.

You know that i tried so hard.

You know my secrets and theirs.

You know what is inside my heart and inside them.

I know that i recently have not prayed enough but i know that You know that i need You so much.

I believe in You and trust You so much but what if i fail the test.

When i think about You, i feel like i am not ready to give up.

Whenever You are beside me, i don't get worried.

Sometimes i may say other than that, but You know me, i am so weak.

so please forgive me
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The.I.inside said…
it's an honest prayer , coming from the hear, and it touched my heart , How can you describe the way I feel .
23/2/09 2:52 PM
Anonymous said…
I don't know why this post felt like I am the one who is talking.

May god forgive all of us coz we really need it !!!
23/2/09 3:01 PM
Brownie said…
as the.i.inside said, what comes from heart touchs the heart specially if we all go through this feeling from time to time.
Ameen to ur paryers Dr.invisible
23/2/09 4:01 PM
Ice Queer said…
That's beautifuly written! May God give u what u want =)

i've some questions thu:
Do you feel any kind of connection with God when u pray? If yes, then do u feel it in all the 5 prayers?

Do u believe in karma?
24/2/09 3:02 AM
Brownie said…
Ice queer:
Ameen to all of us :)
to be honest, i feel the connection when i am prepared to, for example, whenever i have to pray in order to not miss the prayer or in a noisy place like work, it is difficult to feel it, that is why i love most salat el fajr and el 3ihaa.
i always believed in Karma even before i know there is such a word for it.
thanks for stepping by
24/2/09 8:45 AM
Ice Queer said…
Well, I donno, I just NEVER felt any kind of connection and on the other hand I pray when I want to not cuz I've to!

You r lucky 2 feel that connection, do u know that? =)
24/2/09 1:16 PM
Brownie said…
i know that i am blessed el hamdolliah :)
24/2/09 2:33 PM
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