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While Wondering

I took off my roots and decided to leave for a new adventure.
I wanted to miss people I used to love and forgot all the anger I had for them.
I did not want to be attached to anyone, to any place.
I wanted to be left alone, I wanted not to be able to reach out for a help when I need one.
I wanted to stand on my own.
And it worked.

And then I started feeling loneliness and longing all over again and then I found you.
You filled in my life and at moments, you were exactly all I need.

Then again, all "what I get myself into", "this is not going to work", "I want way out" thoughts came back rushing.

And again I missed the me not attached to anyone, the lonely me, the one and only can make myself happy and sad.
Because no matter how less I expect from you, you never cease to disappoint me.

Is it time to take my roots out and start wondering again?

Comments

Anonymous said…
Hey there,
Lovely blog you have.

Tillyum
18/8/14 1:36 PM
Brownie said…
Tillyum:
Thanks for passing by and your nice comment =)
18/8/14 10:52 PM
Anonymous said…
I love to winder like you ;)

Yameesh
3/9/14 10:23 AM
Anonymous said…
*wONder

Yameesh
3/9/14 10:24 AM
Brownie said…
Yameesh:
When was the last time you wondered and what did you do?
14/9/14 12:41 PM
Anonymous said…
It was like 5 years ago.
Went to Spain, got introduced to the language and people,forgot about myself and problems and was sooo free.

Yameesh
18/9/14 3:59 PM
Brownie said…
Yameesh:
That is very nice, Spain is a very beautiful country, planning to visit it soon
20/9/14 8:09 AM
Anonymous said…
Hi, where are your new posts? :)

Bayan
2/10/14 2:30 PM
Anonymous said…
Oh and ,

you almost forgot how did "What" feel?

Bayan
2/10/14 2:32 PM
Anonymous said…
Hey girl!

keep on writing :))

Luv this bog!

Mayada
13/10/14 9:09 AM
Brownie said…
Mayada:
Thanks a lot for stepping by and nice comment ☺️
14/10/14 12:39 AM
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