While Wondering

I took off my roots and decided to leave for a new adventure.
I wanted to miss people I used to love and forgot all the anger I had for them.
I did not want to be attached to anyone, to any place.
I wanted to be left alone, I wanted not to be able to reach out for a help when I need one.
I wanted to stand on my own.
And it worked.

And then I started feeling loneliness and longing all over again and then I found you.
You filled in my life and at moments, you were exactly all I need.

Then again, all "what I get myself into", "this is not going to work", "I want way out" thoughts came back rushing.

And again I missed the me not attached to anyone, the lonely me, the one and only can make myself happy and sad.
Because no matter how less I expect from you, you never cease to disappoint me.

Is it time to take my roots out and start wondering again?