Meet The Brownie ...

Happy new year everyone, hope this one is better one and everyone's dreams come true in this one...Happy 2009

few years ago, after my brother graduation,alot of his friends, his close ones travelled abroad in a search for a better living, i was sad for him and for them. they would no longer friends like they were, even when they tried to keep the ties. few years after that, i graduated and my best friend and other close friends did the same, travelled abroad. when my best friend travelled for the first time, i cried. second time, i get used to it. now my brother is going to travel very soon and i am sure i am going to miss him like hell, i will never get used to his absence. i don't want him to go, although i know it is the best for him. i don't want him to go, but i wish him happiness and good luck. i don't want him to go, because we are family, we suppose to be together. i don't want him to go because i will miss him so bad. i hate when life blows us away :(

Everytime i get myself into trouble, only Him can get me out of it untouched. el hamdolliah, el hamdolliah, el hamdolliah

Today i knew that my friend, or should i say once had been a friend, got engaged to her co-worker who was already engaged to another co-worker and who dumbed her for my friend and this ex-fiancee' had a nervous breakdown at work....considered me old fashioned or whatever but this is so mean.. why does it seem that everyone is depressed, really why?!! Are we spoiled? or it is really the hard life?! I got a new job today...el hamdolliah I have a new goal....el hamdolliah finally, i watched a movie this week called (walk the line) and WOW, i loved the soundtracks so much...i like the country music.

Zanzoun is 5 months and 15 days old and 2 days ago she was able to sit all by her own self which considered her first achievement offically and not last one inshaallah.

Once upon a time, there was a girl who did not have much but she was grateful for what she had. she was not that smart but smart enough to know that with a little effort, everything is possible. During the time of her growing up, you can hardly notice her except for her good remarks. She was not a trouble maker and she never has. Everyone admired her. Everyone expected for her a bright future including herself. She had two dreams, two main dreams. one dream, deep inside her, she knew she can get it because she thought she had all it requires to get it. the other one,she left to the fate, because there is nothing she can do about. and one night,her life turned upside down to test all she once believed in. she fought at first so hard. every times she failed, she learned something and refused to give up. she told herself that one day everything will be just fine, nothing lasts forever. But recently, she gave it all up, she can not fight anymore. she abandoned the world and the world aband...

3 days ago, my eyeglasses has been broken, so i had to wear my lenses all the time or most of it ,going to sleep early, who wear lenses know why. But thank God i was able to finish the novel i was stuck reading it for more than 2 months which is deception point for Dan Brown. Although that i did not like it much coz it is purely scientific but i like the author's suspense, that is what made me read it to the end, considering that i read another novel in between :) i am amazed with the author's talent. here is what the post about, a friend told me once that she does not like wearing eyeglasses, i do of course, because she does not like to see life within a frame. this conversation was years ago, but it came to my mind that we all see the life within a frame. frame of our beliefs and experience,motives and self-benefit, right? and this makes me wonder, do u think there is one single person who lives a Frameless life? p.s i got new eyeglasses el hamdoliah

It is hard When you love someone and he does not love u back. When someone loves you and you can not love him back. When you love someone and he loves you back but it does not work out. When you miss the one you love. When you see the one you used to love, in love. When the one you love broke your heart. To fall in or out of love. So why do want to fall in love?!!

If i would start shooting people i am angry at, i would start by shooting myself.

A very good young man called Moez Masoud, may Allah reward him for all he does, said once that everytime you do something good it is because Allah wants you to do so He can reward you coz He swt loves you. because Allah is El awel we El akher (the first and the last). so think about such thought everytime you go to pray or read Quraan. It just brings me smile on my face. الحمد لله حمدا كثيرا

Sitting there in the darkness of my own thoughts, wondering am I wrong? Did I make a mistake? And if yes, where is exactly? Most people would say that if they can, they would change their past to improve their present. But what if I don’t know where the crack began. with so much bad luck in my life, i believe that i have made a mistake, may be more than one. May be it is a curse or may be a test? how shall i know?

There is only one sin.and that is theft... when u tell a lie, you steal someone's right to the truth. when you kill someone, you steal his life from him and i liked also, For you a thousand times over. p.s it is a great novel

I was born in Egypt and I have been living here my whole life and I have never been abroad. I know that we have many problems here and I face many bad situations on daily basis. I cannot help but love it, after all it is a home for me. Here I have a family, a great Egyptian one, and great friends, strangers who still care to ask if I got hurt in front of eyes. People who thank Allah everyday, whenever they face hardship and remind others to thank too. I love it is beautiful Nile, its blue wonderful sea and the smell of it. I love the masajids and the voice of the azan. I love the spiritual joy in Ramadan and in El Eid. I love people sense of humor. I love the ancient places. I wrote this post because I fed up with all foreigners or even the Egyptians who are living abroad who cannot stop nagging when they come for a visit. They keep saying in my country there is blah blah blah.as if they are the reason for everything good in their countries. Egypt is crowded, so are china and state...

Few hours and Ramadan will end :( I am going to miss him so much but I will miss myself with him more. Hope that Allah has accepted our good deeds and next year we would better inshaallah. with Few hours too,El Eid is coming, I love El Eid so much. It brings me a joy of a 5 years old kid. After all that is why Allah made it for us, to cheer up. Inshaallah Happy Eid for all muslims ya Rab Kol sana we ento taybeen :)

Today i heard about the death of a young man in a car accident. I don't know him personally but it gives me pain, Allah yer7amo, thinking about the beloved ones left behind specially his mom. parents always believe or wish that their sons will bury them not vise verse. He was about getting married after Ramdan and got everything ready for that. It came to my mind that we keep worrying about el dunya as if we are going to live forever. Subhan Allah. اللهم أغفر له واجعل قبرة روضة من رياض الجنة اللهم أغفر للمسلمين والمسلمات الأحياء منهم والأموات

It is wired when people decide that they had enough of you. Over a night, they discover that you are not part of this trip. Over a night, they decide that you don’t deserve to be on this ship. A new captain and a new passenger as well. They recently have became too busy to tell that you no longer on board. Even yesterday, you were their only friend, only love, and only shore. Sorry but you are no longer on board. You did not choose before to be on this ship. and now you are no longer on board. You stand watching, amazed, wondering what you should say. Shall u fight? , Shall u wish them luck? …No matter what you say. Sorry but you are no longer on board. wishing you did not love them that much, it would have hurt less. Time to wave goodbye even you don’t want. But you should learn to let it go :'( p.s: i deserve it.

She is a tiny little kid. She is only four months old. She is noisy but lively. She is an angel, when she sleeps in my arms and not to forget her sleepy smile. When she smiles at me, I find myself smiling even when I am furious. When she sits quietly, I feel that I miss her so I go and pick it up. She is my little princess and my little niece. I love her so much and I don’t think I am going to love anyone like her. Thanks a lot Zeina for bringing such a joy and love in my life …..el hamdoliah

اللهم انى أشكو اليك ضعف قوتى وقلة حيلتى و هوانى على الناس

life never stops upon: The death of a beloved one. The breaking up with our lovers. The loss of a dream or two. Heart of sorrow. Eyes full of tears. Chest full of pain. so let it goes ,don't stand still ,go with it and learn not to stop too

If you expect a perfect flawless life, then you should not be living this one. Friends sometimes are the worst invention ever. Being single and alone is not always that bad. if you really want to get a good partner, try to be like you want him to be. we deserve good stuff as well as bad stuff happened to us so we should learn to accept them both. when we lose a dream after another, we never get used to the loss..it still hurts everytime.

today is my 24th birthday ,don't have much to say but i feel i have to since it the first birthday for me since i start blogging. mmm...what shall i say?! i am happy to get here. Grateful for everything i have. thanks a lot for everybody who remember اللهم متعنا بأسماعنا وأبصارنا وصحتنا ما أحييتانا

if u have to choose between those 2 what would u choose?!

i did not like Nawal el se3dawy coz in most of her Tv interviews she emphasized that Hijab is not in Islam till one day i was encouraged by some of her online fans to read for her before judging ..so i recently have bought her a book called (my papers...my life) from my reading i discovered that: she is a feminist from the first degree (just like me ,i don't like to be treated less than anyone just coz i am a girl and i defend my rights as a girl) she wrote about the earlier marriage ,the female gentile mutilation,and some horrible marriage traditions that used to happen in the past. she writes with a great courage that reaches to daring. i admired her writing so much ,her way and her courage coz people like her free us from ignorant habits we had and still have. i still disagree with her regarding the hijab but no pb..

yeah that is true ...i always c the pink side and the full half of the glass. i always believe that : *after along suffering trip u ll find peace and happiness. *tomorrow will be better. *whenever it gets harder ,it would be solved by itself. I begin to feel afraid of my hopes ..what if i would live like this for the rest of my life and i would not come any closer from achieving my dreams. tomorrow comes and brings more sadness and failure. life kept getting harder till it strangle me to death. it freaks me out when i try to think like pessimistic ppl so i choose to be optimistic again i say i ll worry when i should be worried..why the hurry.. p.s u know when i was in college ,my friends used to say that we won't get job once we graduated but i always told them ,we r doing our best and Allah won't waste our efforts it is almost 3 years since my graduation and i can not find job :)

Have u ever felt so down? Have u ever felt that that u don't wanna wake up? Have u lost a dream recently? Have u got hurt from someone that u loved him so bad? Have u felt hopless ,useless and lifeless? i know these feeling and i passed through them,but i never let them stopping me. here are some tips for u to stop them too: *Thank Allah for what u have and trust Him in what u need. *Be sure that u r living for a purpose so try to find it. *If u lost a dream, go for another *Recovering from being hurt takes time. *First thing to do when u wake up smile and Thank Allah for another day. i.e dedicated for my friend Ali and everone who felt down ...have a nice day