My pb is that ....i am too optimistic

yeah that is true ...i always c the pink side and the full half of the glass.
i always believe that :
*after along suffering trip u ll find peace and happiness.
*tomorrow will be better.
*whenever it gets harder ,it would be solved by itself.

I begin to feel afraid of my hopes ..what if
i would live like this for the rest of my life and i would not come any closer from achieving my dreams.
tomorrow comes and brings more sadness and failure.
life kept getting harder till it strangle me to death.

it freaks me out when i try to think like pessimistic ppl so i choose to be optimistic again
i say i ll worry when i should be worried..why the hurry..

p.s u know when i was in college ,my friends used to say that we won't get job once we graduated but i always told them ,we r doing our best and Allah won't waste our efforts
it is almost 3 years since my graduation and i can not find job :)

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