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He Just Came Back

To tell me he is getting married
That he still loves me
That he tried but I did not give us a chance
That he wants me to be his kids' mom
That he was childish when we first met
That he wants me more than anything
And I said no
And I cried, I cried and cried and he asked if it because I loved him and I said no
I cried for my older self that lost a dream today.
I wanted you back then so much, I wanted you to tell me all what you said that day, I was ready to fight for you and with you but now am not me 10 years ago. Your loss!

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