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I want to lose my mind for awhile.
To act spontaneously.
To go ahead spend all my savings on traveling and shopping for stuff I can live without.
To stop being angry at you and treat you like nothing has ever happened. To treat you the same as I used to do.
To talk on the phone till I 4 AM.
To stop working hard. To stop having goals.
To stop wishing. to stop dreaming and to stop missing you.
To be happy, happy for myself and not for anyone else.
I want to laugh till I pee.
I want to feel loved again.
I want to be able to trust you again.

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