Meet The Brownie ...

I adore my niece, the youngest in our family. Since she was a baby, she was so calm and adorable. I love her innocence the most. She thinks that crocodile is حلويات أليفة I wish life treat her well and that very beautiful smile she has would never go away. I wish the guy she will fall in love with, would not break her heart or I would break his neck. I wish she finds her passion early, no I wish she finds every now and then a new passion and challenge. I wish to be there for here and I would always be her favorite aunt.

I have not been writing for too long but I wanted to write so bad like before, with all the angry emotions I have, it is not like they are not here anymore, they are here but I get used to them being here and not showing them. they are there in their cage, in my chest. It has been a long time since I cried, true long time, it is not like I have nothing to cry over, it is like more stronger, or careless, I don't know. I have not been happy for myself for along time either but I have been happy seeing people happy with their lives. I like to share people moments I missed. I am missing something everyday, not sure when can I get it or would I ever get it. I am not even sure if I will get used to the idea of living without it. How could people suddenly become so rude? I mean all of them. how often they hurt you? once a day at least. how often do I hurt you? Am grateful for everything I prayed for and got it el hamdoliah. As we grow older, a partner is a necessity for survival ...

Ok here you are, earlier than expected and since we are going to stay together for some time, we need to agree on the following terms and conditions: No more wrinkles please. I don't have to look as if I am smiling or angry when I am not. You are 28 for God sake not 58. Don't bring me friends that am going to lose. As much as am used to this idea by now, I still don't like it. You better bring someone to fight with over stupid reasons and still won't go. Please not that one again. What about trying new stuff?! Everything seems so boring and dull so some change will be nice or I would settle for drugs. I don't want to be old and crumby. Although I have not be independent for so long, I don't like, it is pain in the a**, Can I retire now? Finally, no need to rush, am not in hurry, you could stay for a year and half or even two. you 20s pass so quickly, I can hardly keep up with you. On a very positive side, Egypt is having, for the first time ever, a rea...

At the beginning of 2012 when I started writing about my resolutions and evaluate last year achievements, I realized that I achieved none. I spent the whole year trying to get something, and I only focused on it. it and nothing else. It ruined me. I was depressed and horrible and I think it still have its effect on me. As a result, I read only 3 books bas, one that I could not even finish. Also I moved to a job that I hated from day one. It was awful & of course I could not stand it. I decided that I have to stop pursing that exact dream that devastated me but as you know me, I cannot give up something I really wanted even if I failed many times to get it. So I tried again and guess what, at the beginning of this year, my dream came true el hamdolliah =) On recent news, I had such fruitful week el hamdolliah, I joined gym and found that I gained 4 kilos, for the first time in my whole life am over-weight, thanks to the snacks that i try to beat my boredom with, so am plannin...

I have not been so fascinated with the western culture like everybody. I always see the good and bad sides of it. I don't take it for granted that they are the more developed ones and we are the stupid illiterate ones. May be because I love my identity so much as an Arab Muslim. I love the fact that am Arab Muslim because I believe that Islam goes beyond the human being. Its core that fascinating me. Anyway, few days ago I read in a British newspaper a story that completely missed up my mind. It is about a couple, suddenly the guy decided to go to transgender and became a girl, then he discovered that he was pregnant, shaifeen el 3ak, then the girl decided to go transgender too and became gay..completely messed up.. What drives me crazy, not the fact that a man got pregnant wala the fact that baby would not know what to call him or his mom who became a man herself, no no not all of that. What drives me crazy that society accepts all that and reject other societies princ...

الحياة تحيرنا. تبهرنا بالبراق من ألوانها, كى نرتاد دروبها فرحا وغفلة, ثم تفجؤنا فى الحنايا الصوادم؟ أم تراها تحتال علينا, بأن تمنحنا أحيانا ما يحاذى أحلامنا، وقد يفوق، فنسرف فى الطمأنينة ونختال بين الخيالات؟..من يدرى؟ لعل الحياة لا تكترث بنا أصلا، فنلاحقها نحن بصنوف الحيل حتى يغمرنا التعلق بالتمنى, والتقلب فى الترقب, والأمل فى اهتبال النوال. عسانا أن ننسى مع مر السنين، أننا فى خاتمة التطواف مسلوبون لا محالة، ومحجوبون... محال ليوسف زيدان    This guy is brilliant, I will buy his books just for the first lines of it, remember this , but to be honest the book is stunning, all of it. You have to read it, no you must,.

Yesterday we discovered that my aunt's house, who lived abroad, had been stolen. First thing, me, mom and sisters was to call the police and not enter the flat, first because we were afraid and second not to mess with the prints if there were any..English movies only. We called the police, its number just for the info 122, he hang up once and did not try to call us back, then we called him again, he asked what had been stolen? We told him that we were afraid to enter and we cannot enter in order to mass up with the prints, he said he won't be able to get us someone unless we told him what had been stolen. Then he called again to tell me that I have to go to the police station and file a record so someone can go with me for investigation. ya 7alwa. At that time, we called a neighbor and go into the flat, prints was everywhere. the thief was really an idiot and he is now free because of our good for nothing police. Anyway after we went to the station, the guy told us th...