I want to lose my mind for awhile. To act spontaneously. To go ahead spend all my savings on traveling and shopping for stuff I can live without. To stop being angry at you and treat you like nothing has ever happened. To treat you the same as I used to do. To talk on the phone till I 4 AM. To stop working hard. To stop having goals. To stop wishing. to stop dreaming and to stop missing you. To be happy, happy for myself and not for anyone else. I want to laugh till I pee. I want to feel loved again. I want to be able to trust you again.
It is more than just a cake and it goes far beyond just a color...