I have not been writing for too long but I wanted to write so bad like before, with all the angry emotions I have, it is not like they are not here anymore, they are here but I get used to them being here and not showing them. they are there in their cage, in my chest. It has been a long time since I cried, true long time, it is not like I have nothing to cry over, it is like more stronger, or careless, I don't know. I have not been happy for myself for along time either but I have been happy seeing people happy with their lives. I like to share people moments I missed. I am missing something everyday, not sure when can I get it or would I ever get it. I am not even sure if I will get used to the idea of living without it. How could people suddenly become so rude? I mean all of them. how often they hurt you? once a day at least. how often do I hurt you? Am grateful for everything I prayed for and got it el hamdoliah. As we grow older, a partner is a necessity for survival ...
It is more than just a cake and it goes far beyond just a color...