Am disappointed big time I feel loser big time although i know that what happened is good for me inshaallah But i still feel like a big loser and so much stupid I can not help it, this is how i feel what drives me nuts that people see that i should not collapse they give me all the reasons not to as if i don't know them already But we need to breakdown when we should We need to cry when we want and feel to I need to get sad every once and a while I have my reasons to be sad, to get angry and to cry Yeah the optimistic me, the beaming with hope me, the always smiling me is broken and needs to cry I do not see hope anywhere Am not the toy you got, and promised if it was not smiling all the way to return it back Am a human after all and i am so disappointed at myself.