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It is my last 20 something birthday unless I live to be 120 something =) I feel happy and grateful el hamdoliah for all I have been through. I love when I feel good on my birthday el hamdoliah. Although I have not achieved what I want but am so grateful for what I achieved so far el hamdoliah. I have done my best so it is not my fault that life was not that easy el hamdoliah. I have a lot to do in last my last 20 something :) Taking off my braces..Yaahhhh \0/. Getting a car inshaallah. Travel abroad inshaallah. Be a better person inshallah. They say 30s are the best, I have one year to try, I would let you know how they are inshaalah

I have not talked about my cat a lot in this blog, I guess I only mentioned her once or twice, so since she is now 7 years old and she is very important to me as I get to know people better, I fall more for her. Here is when I first got it, the first year, she was younger  I carry her to get a proper picture of her   Here is the scary look, it completely does not define her, she is the cutest, kind heart cat. What are you eating look =)  Sleeping like an angel. Fully awake =) One day I lost her, it was one of the worst days, my whole family was looking for her with me. She welcomes me when I return home. she could hide all day, only appears at the time of me coming home. She stays where I stay. She wakes me up whenever I am late or she just bored or need to eat. She has a personality of her own, she would not eat any food, proper food only. She cleans herself after you pat her. I have always been an animal-lover sin...

Last December, me and three of my friends went to Sharm El Shaikh and on the last day we decided to climb prophet Mosa's mountain PBUH and visit Saint Catherine monastery and it was such the highlight of the whole trip. It was my first time to do the following things; First time to climb a mountain. Prophet Mosa's mountain.  First time to do تيمم , it was freezing and my finger were about to fall, a British guy told us how to do it & we prayed el Fajr over the mountain.  First time to walk for about 14KM & climb up 750 stairs and back down...It still hurts when I think about it :)                           "We were supposed to watch the sun rise, but we were so tired to really enjoy it" First time to go to Saint Catherin monastery and it is awesome.  "Have you ever seen such a beautiful sky?! I doubt"  ...

I adore my niece, the youngest in our family. Since she was a baby, she was so calm and adorable. I love her innocence the most. She thinks that crocodile is حلويات أليفة I wish life treat her well and that very beautiful smile she has would never go away. I wish the guy she will fall in love with, would not break her heart or I would break his neck. I wish she finds her passion early, no I wish she finds every now and then a new passion and challenge. I wish to be there for here and I would always be her favorite aunt.

I have not been writing for too long but I wanted to write so bad like before, with all the angry emotions I have, it is not like they are not here anymore, they are here but I get used to them being here and not showing them. they are there in their cage, in my chest. It has been a long time since I cried, true long time, it is not like I have nothing to cry over, it is like more stronger, or careless, I don't know. I have not been happy for myself for along time either but I have been happy seeing people happy with their lives. I like to share people moments I missed. I am missing something everyday, not sure when can I get it or would I ever get it. I am not even sure if I will get used to the idea of living without it. How could people suddenly become so rude? I mean all of them. how often they hurt you? once a day at least. how often do I hurt you? Am grateful for everything I prayed for and got it el hamdoliah. As we grow older, a partner is a necessity for survival ...

Ok here you are, earlier than expected and since we are going to stay together for some time, we need to agree on the following terms and conditions: No more wrinkles please. I don't have to look as if I am smiling or angry when I am not. You are 28 for God sake not 58. Don't bring me friends that am going to lose. As much as am used to this idea by now, I still don't like it. You better bring someone to fight with over stupid reasons and still won't go. Please not that one again. What about trying new stuff?! Everything seems so boring and dull so some change will be nice or I would settle for drugs. I don't want to be old and crumby. Although I have not be independent for so long, I don't like, it is pain in the a**, Can I retire now? Finally, no need to rush, am not in hurry, you could stay for a year and half or even two. you 20s pass so quickly, I can hardly keep up with you. On a very positive side, Egypt is having, for the first time ever, a rea...

At the beginning of 2012 when I started writing about my resolutions and evaluate last year achievements, I realized that I achieved none. I spent the whole year trying to get something, and I only focused on it. it and nothing else. It ruined me. I was depressed and horrible and I think it still have its effect on me. As a result, I read only 3 books bas, one that I could not even finish. Also I moved to a job that I hated from day one. It was awful & of course I could not stand it. I decided that I have to stop pursing that exact dream that devastated me but as you know me, I cannot give up something I really wanted even if I failed many times to get it. So I tried again and guess what, at the beginning of this year, my dream came true el hamdolliah =) On recent news, I had such fruitful week el hamdolliah, I joined gym and found that I gained 4 kilos, for the first time in my whole life am over-weight, thanks to the snacks that i try to beat my boredom with, so am plannin...