Life is difficult

Yeah true it is.
Lets forget about the photos with the smiley faces.
All the nice places we check in.
All the Am fine words.

Because I am not fine and life is not fine.

I hate being alone and I love it in the same time.
I want to have a dog but I cannot.
I cannot stop think of you.

I want just to sleep tight and happy.
I want to be happy but till then am just fine outside, heartbroken inside.

Comments

Sally said…

yes, life is difficult but you can face it!
I am sure you can :)

11/5/14 1:57 PM

batates_777 said…

Cant agree more ! but who said life will be at any other stage easier or even better ! it is not . the fact it is not ..and it will never be . ith all the dreams comign true , there will always be p** in the *** always ! always irritating and leaves you feel same way you do now!reasons differntiate only remains same result. dont hesitate to talk to psychologist about it. might help, otherwise mingle around married couples and you ll figure it out.
happiness comes within for true.and unfortunately.

15/5/14 7:32 PM

Brownie said…

Sally:

Thanks a lot habebti for having faith in me :)

Batates:
cannot agree more than happiness comes from within but sometimes we need someone to find it for us and that is what sometimes I need.

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