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The vague

I have got myself into trouble recently
I trusted people when i should not.
I could not bring myself into apologizing and it is irritating me but still i can not do it.
I let someone ruin up my day which was perfectly fine.
Somehow i lost control upon my life but you know what, realizing that there is a problem is half the solution.
Friend told something about me, i don't know whether i have changed without me realizing so or she just does not know me enough, i was shocked anyway because this was not me at all.
May be it is me now but it was not me when i used to be me.

so now i have to take a grip back upon my life
For the apologizing, still i am not ready to give it, lets give it sometime.

Finally, a quote from Grey's anatomy
"sometimes you don't recognize that something has changed, you still you and your life still yours, then one day you wake up and you don't recognize anything at all...nothing at all"
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