Meet The Brownie ...

I always tell my cousin, who live In Europe, that If I was born and raised in Europe, I might not have realized the importance of Hijab and I would have never wear it. But when I moved to Europe, I realized that Hijab here does its job more than in home, Egypt I mean, because here men stare and might comment if you wear sexy clothes, never touching or bad words, just nice compliments. Don't tell me that you don't like to get nice compliments if you wear nice sexy clothes. In Egypt ba2a, Hijab or without Hijab, you will get harassed, if you smile, if you drive, if you cycle, if you walk, meaning if you were born a girl, يالا حظك السيئ Egypt May God have His mercy on you  =(

So I am 30, single and independent and that is awesome :) I just hit my 30s, so don't ever dare telling me what to do.

Today I saw a couple hugging and show affection, I know it is not new, I live in Europe and this is normal. But those specially touched me. they were so sweet. He walked by her side, holding her hand in one hand and his bike in the other hand. From time to time, she would stop him to give him a kiss or a hug. It made me wonder, how does it feel to be deeply in love, to be able to hug him/her anywhere, to be safely in love. If you had this kind of love for once in your lifetime, then be grateful, you probably deserve it.

Yeah true it is. Lets forget about the photos with the smiley faces. All the nice places we check in. All the Am fine words. Because I am not fine and life is not fine. I hate being alone and I love it in the same time. I want to have a dog but I cannot. I cannot stop think of you. I want just to sleep tight and happy. I want to be happy but till then am just fine outside, heartbroken inside.

It is a bit late but it is never actually late for good news. 2013 had been awesome for me el hamdoliah in many ways and brought a lot of good stuff into 2014; Career wise was and still magnificent el hamdolliah.  I got promoted el hamdoliah el hamdoliah. I discovered who are my real friends are. I moved to Europe where people are very polite and smiley :) I live alone, I hate it but I discover how much my family and friends love me, I can hardly find time to stay alone by myself even when I am miles away. And again I dumped some people so hard and actually enjoy it. I walk happily and safely in the street el hamdoliah. Home sickness of course, I wish I can get mom, my sister and her family and Popsi over here, it would have been much better. I have a home of my own, kind of yeah . Planning to get a bike inshallah very soon.  I discovered that I love Egypt but I hate Cairo, it it the worst ever. I have been to different places for the first time.  1st...

I know I have promised a cheerful post, with all going into my life, perfectly it is el hamdoliah, I should write a one. But you know when you get something you have never dreamed about, and it is very good but still scares the hell out of you, that is what am going through right now. After only five days, am going to leave my home, family and friends and leave Egypt, I know, I know FINALLY. although am grateful for such opportunity, am still scared as hell. And since am not a good talker recently, I prefer to write it here, so till I move and settle down and will be able to write about the good experience...am here

I know that many have talked about this topic but here I want to talk about my personal experience. I am 29 years old and single and of course am still staying at mom's house, so here are some highlights of my life of being old and single. I never imagined how a husband or a partner to be specific is very essential until I lost my friends to marriage. It is like "We are friends, till marriage fall us apart". I have to understand that they are busy to go out or even to call every now and then. I have to understand that our meetings can be canceled and modified according to their agenda. Which I normally don't understand and that slowly ends our friendship. Your siblings have moved out too and although they always there for you, you still cannot reach them all the time. They have their own lives now and other people to look after. Your mom is old and settled, your interests are completely different, while you have this youth madness. You want to explore the wor...