Meet The Brownie ...

El hamdolliah the job is great, i love it and guess what the people are extremly nice and well behaved mashaa Allah, i mean all of them imagine ?! =), actually i go everyday with a smile on my face, i even don't mind getting half an hour earlier. so, for people out there who hate their jobs, go and risk and search for another one, because not all jobs are boring, stressful, and lack fun but before you make your decision, ask God for guidance. "Pray Istkhara" Thanks a lot for everyone who prayed for me and may Allah give you whatever you wish for and good for you.

Ok now i am starting losing my mind officially =D, i have been under stress for quite sometime, and as a result i have sleeping problems and sometimes nightmares that wake me up and i find myself thanking Allah so much that it was just a nightmare. Recently, i have begun to see hallucination kaman =) Hole in the roof hallucination: yesterday i wake up at night and i freaked out when i imagined a hole in the roof and in a second, i wondered where that part of roof fell, because there was nothing in the bed beside or over me, i still turned on the light and checked and i found the roof good and complete el hamdolliah. The open door hallucination: 2 weeks ago or so, i also wake up at middle of the night to drink water, i imagined that someone opened the door and close it and i was sure that i went to ask my mom, who was still awake, whether she is the one who did that but of course she was not. Am i getting crazy or what?! Rabana yostor...anyway have a peaceful night inshaallah

I am so nervous, i am starting a new job next Sunday inshaallah. It is another career shifting but still on the track. Pray for me اللهم لاسهل إلا ماجعلته سهلا وأنت تجعل الحزن إن شئت سهلا

I was tagged by IBHOG to start count my blessings which are enormous so he limited them to 5-10, since it is the best tag, here we go; 1. Being healthy el hamdolliah, it happened once that i got really sick and i stayed in bed for almost 3 days, i could not get out of it, i could not eat or do anything, i got really bored, that is when i realized the health gift i took it for granted but not anymore el hamdolliah. The word: amazing 2. Going through tough times: although i have been very good at school and have always been appraised by my teachers, it was hard for me to find a good job until recently el hamdolliah, i learned a lot from this period el hamdolliah. The word: Hardship 3. My niece: i love her so much and enjoy her companion a lot even when she is really noisy, i love when she makes me smile when i am really sad, when i just remember her and smile coz i remember some of her actions, i love when she hugs me, i just adore her el hamdolliah. she called me fafa few days ago =D T...

If your God is my God, then don't worry He always keeps up His promises... el hamdolliah

For the first time in 7 years, i have not waited for your message. For the first time, i don't get over excited upon getting it. I did not read it so many times till i memorise it. I did not search for the meaning behind it. Once i got it and knew it is yours, i deleted it without regretting. And finally, i moved on, my past. and it feels great =)

A shrink, a psychiatrist or whatever they call it. That is something i don't want to do. I don't want to listen to people complain about their lives. I don't want listen to sobbing about their lives whether it is really bad or they are spoiled. I don't want to listen to people problems while my mind is occupied with mine. I don't want to listen when i can not give a solution. I don't want to go step by step to find a solution. I don't want to talk about failed marriages, relations, weird orientations , or even addiction. Oh God,that is a really tough job, gloomy job to have, May Allah help them. What is the job you can never do it?!